fuck

I'm on the verge of crying now.

Why did I choose to write about West Borneo?

There's practically nothing out there that describes the changes that it had after the Japanese Occupation.

And I'm paranoid after 1600 words.

I feel very doomed.

I want to cry real bad.

I don't want to redo this essay. I hope LKS (lecturer)'s reply will be positive. I hope he says I can focus on the racial riots instead. I REALLY DON'T WANT TO REWRITE 1600 WORDS. omg.

I'm really having heart palpitations now. No joke.

I shall sleep.

Everything will be better tomorrow. Think happy thoughts Fitrina! Think of happy thoughts! Dark chocolate Rochers! Johnny Depp!

I really hope everything will work out fine. I don't want to s/u this module. =(

GAH

Im currently on my path towards 800 words.

ZOMG.

that's like 40% of the essay done.

MY BACK IS HURTING LAR!

Imaginary days

Tonight is a battle between the history of West Borneo and I.

Tomorrow will be the 206 filming.

I'm quite determined to finish the history bit today. 2000 worth of essay plus bibliography and citations.

I CAN DO IT! I KNOW I CAN! BYE! SHALL SHOWER AND MUG!

whatever lar

I have 5 assignments to do:

1. COM202 project due 8th april 2010
2. COM204 brochure due 26th march 2010 before 6pm
3. COM206 Assignment 3: video due 9th april 2010
4. COM208 Assignment 2: survey questions due 26th march 2010
5. HH202 history essay due 22nd march 2010

AND

I bought 5 items online:

1. a set of 4 everyday minerals blushes
2. splatter crop tee
3. valleygirl plaid jacket
4. zebra fringe tee
5. cotton on crop tee

AND

I have 5 shows to catch:

1. American Idol Season 9
2. America's Next Top Model Cycle 14
3. The Amazing Race (goodness knows which season this is)
4. 偷心大聖 P.S. 男
5. Upcoming Star Awards 2010

HAIYOH WHAT IS THIS!

emptiness once again

It's always about me thinking about what others are thinking.

I am a certified hypocrite.

I tell people to not give a fuck about what others have to say about yourself, and I'm actually quite affected by these unwanted comments.

After a great and unnecessary amount of time, I concluded that I need people to tell me that I'm okay. If not I will go into this eccentric emo self, and I will shut off all happy thoughts and just have suicidal thoughts.

I admit that I have suicidal thoughts. It's always the same as to how nice it will be leaving behind all your miseries. Then the thought will halt when the picture of me struggling to die appears. What if I don't die and become a vegetable instead!

In short, I'm too chicken to kill myself.

I'm rather in awe of people who can be optimistic all the time. I can be optimistic in front of people. But when alone, I'm a complete mess.

That's why I think I need a lot of love from friends and family. Loneliness is already nurturing within me and so I need a sufficient amount of love to curb the growth rate.

I am such a loser.

Week 9 in Retrospect

I cut my hair and trimmed those bushy brows.

Noticeably thinner hair and neater brows. I want a new hairdo and that requires me to grow out my hair. I want real long in the front, but still VERY short at the back. Talk about EXTREME concave cut.

This week is denim day. The dress that I was wearing is completely free. Picked it up during karang guni. It was brand new with the tag still on. HAHA. NOTHING CAN BEAT THAT!

This was pasted at one of the shower cubicles in Toilet 48 of Hall 13. I wonder what the person left behind. HAHA.

On Thursday night, we headed out to ROCKFEST held by Hall 8, 9 and 11. It was pretty awesome because I had awesome company, awesome food, awesome beer and awesome songs!

The food was really good, and they were all from Hall 11! Need to go there soon. I've never eaten there before. USUAL PAVERTS! LET'S GO THERE ONE DAY!=)

I love horny hui. She is always spontaneous in making such unflattering yet funny poses. =)

Mark and Jasmine got BEST COUPLE IN CS!! YAY! sho sweeeeet ar! =) And the one on the right is Kaywee, our promising director!

Haul part!!

Forever 21 hairbands. I got this set from an online seller for 4 bucks. =)

This one I must mention in EXCLAMATION!

I scoured the entire nation for L'officiel Magazine but I scoured too late because the interest of buying only caught me quite late after the release of the magazine. Kino/Times/Borders were all out of the magazine. Even the official L'officiel Singapore was also OUT of the magazine.

Then on Thursday, Song and I thought that the food at RockFest was gonna suck, so we went to 7-11 first. and OHMYGOSH I FOUND THE MAGAZINE AT NTU 7-11! I was super lucky because this was the only copy that had the free eyeshadow quad, the rest only contained the magazine!! =)

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!

I got the NO. 3 quad and I feel damn heng because I didn't want the violet or the blue one. PHEW!

Also got some Redearth double-ended eyeliners in purple and blue. 7 bucks for both. I cannot wait to use the rather striking turquoise colour on my lower lashline! NEXT WEEK!

I bought this concealer from Ebay for 3.50. The seller was very very very late in sending the palette because she forgot to send it out. I was about to give her a negative rating when she emailed me that she would include some freebies, so I'm like "ok, see what you send me..". She sent me some eyemasks! So timely. Negative became positive instead. HAHA.

I have been wanting this set for quite a long time. I got both for 10 bucks I think. On Ebay. Ebay is love. =)

The lavender powder serves as a fantastic highlighter. Good for those occasions where you know you will take a lot of photographs. The original one is a tad too powdery though. Shall make it work.

Got this VOV blusher too because I wanted some coral based blusher. I must admit that this is a FANTASTIC blusher. I WANT TO COLLECT THE ENTIRE SERIES! =)

Random: I got an A for history project. YAY!

POPO is coming next week! So I will be heading home every single day. SO FORTUNATE! Loreal Beauty Sale is coming and usually my popo gives me money. =) AND ALSO, I have a history project that requires me to interview a senior citizen on their own opinions on World War 2, and so I CAN INTERVIEW HER! YAY!

Places I really want to go:

1. Crystal Jade XiaoLongBao
2. Bugis Street

A busy week has passed and next week shall be the commencement of my mugging spirit! WHOOSH!

woah it's a saturday!

Time flies when you are busy.

My Saturday just flew past because of NTU Open House and I was rather angsty about how my weekend was abysmal. Luckily Lenny, Mao and Junyi came to the Open House and luckily it rained. So they have no choice but to wait for me. HAHA.

We had some Billy Bombers. Still loving seafood paradise. watery tomato-based pastas are the best!

I have a haul post definitely, and some funny shots I took this week.

And for next week, I'm gonna go home every single day because my popo is coming! =) YAY! =)

I said I was going to stop the online hauling but I got 4 edm blushes in a go. At least I tried.

Fatigued and aching everywhere. SHALL SLEEP!

in school for open house.

the only good thing is, I get fantastic free lunch and goodie bag. oh and free shirt for the helpers.

gah.

lazybum

I'm really tired, even of taking photos. I have my camera in my bag, but I just won't take it out to take photos and record daily musings visually. Typical how when the lazy drive is started, everything I do will be accompanied by irritation of inconvenience... even of taking photos!

I have decided that on Saturday I will post up a haul post as usual, but I will stop for 2 weeks. Since Loreal Beauty Sale is coming, I'm going to save up and spend on that day itself. Priorities definitely well-put. The Body Shop Sale is too much of a hassle so I will give it a miss. Not such a huge fan of Body Shop anyway.

Tomorrow will be denim day and I will be wearing my found-during-karangguni denim dress. It's BRAND NEW and it's DENIM! How appropriate right!

Feel so like sleeping. Today has been a bloody long day.

If I sleep now, I shall wake up at 8 to mug tomorrow!

good!

why do i need more makeup?

BECAUSE:

1. I ran out of my favourite Loreal eyeliner. NO MORE ALREADY. ccb.
2. I ran out of Maybelline Angelfit foundation.
3. I ran out of ZA foundation.
4. I ran out of Maybelline concealer.

Seriously.

I need to stock up!

and I have to go change. Time for school AGAIN!. bummer.