been a long time

I haven't been upset about anything so seriously for a long time. Sure I have been miffed about little things but those feelings were just come-and-go type.This has been bugging me for a while and I don't really see any other avenue to rant on.

What really pissed me off:

When you have been helping a friend a lot (or so I think) and then when there's no problem for this person, he/she just ignores you. Ignore is a harsh word, but I see no other word that can describe my feelings more appropriately.

So I'm only here when trouble knocks on your door?

I help people willingly, unless I really hate you. I have been used by my friends a lot in my life. Projects, assignments and other stuff. People throw things to me and I gullibly just complete everything for them. My only comfort is that I thought I was capable enough to help others.

And I have been this foolish for years.

Perhaps I am seeing things differently because I am angered right now. But the behaviour that I received lead me to seeing things differently.

You are busy, so you ignore.

I am busy and I do not ignore because I see you as a friend.

What to do? I am born this way. I cannot help that people like to use me and then throw me aside like a used tissue paper. So long as I'm alive, these random rants will always appear in my blog.

Fuck it.