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It's 2:45 am and I'm still maneuvering through the myriad of videos on Youtube. Somehow or another, I will find something exciting to watch. Somehow or another that exciting stuff is a series, so I have to complete its entirety before I can go off to bed.

The Tyra Banks Show is gone. I just finished watching its last ever episode and I'm kind of sad. No matter how irritating Tyra's voice can get, the show is still an eye-opener. Especially episodes in which she interviewed a porn-star, a teenage prostitute, or episodes in which she went undercover as a 300 pound woman, a homeless person or a woman in a prison. Even episodes on vaginas, breasts and other sensitive topics are brought onto the table.

And now, the show is cancelled at its peak, just after it won another Emmy for Best Talkshow Informative. The reason they give was simply because of Tyra's bigger ambitions. She wants to create a movie and she wants to build up a publishing company for female authors.

Seriously, anyone with deep feelings towards supporting female rights will have some adoration for Tyra Banks. This has nothing to do with feminism though because that term is too loosely defined.

Tyra Banks is someone that I look up to. A woman that works to fulfill her innermost passion. She models for more than a decade, but modeling is not what she's after. With the capital she accumulated from her stellar modeling career, she's able to make a talkshow, a reality show, an upcoming production house, etc etc. This is what I call a smart woman.

Well I can't possibly model can I? The only relatable traits that I have to a model are perhaps my skin condition and my funky hair.

I will work hard in being a communications researcher, and then after I gather all the sweet-smelling moolahs, I will buy a really huge house for my mom to live in. Oh and plus maids because my mom has the tendency to clean the house when she has nothing to do, and if the house is huge, that will be a burden.

My passion is that simple.

My mom has undergone some of the worst situations in life that every woman will dread. And she is still awake everyday watching her favourite korean shows on her laptop, when some women would have fallen under depression.

I don't really know how to tell my mom how much I appreciate her because communication between the 2 of us was really ruined by my younger, rebellious self and the stupid man in the house.

But I'm going to work hard to at least detach her from the horror.

Very childish, but extremely meaningful to me.

To Tyra Banks

To communications research

and to a better future to everyone who deserves one.