Just a question: when was the last time you stop competing with people?

Health competition may have a certain impact of doing well, but why must we rely on being competitive to do well?

I really miss carefree days.

Well, I don't miss carefree days since I think I haven't had one single carefree day.

I really want carefree days.

I don't want to compete with anyone else. I just want to do things for myself and no one else. Sometimes I really hate it when people just go on and on and on about how they are better off/worse off than another. Like seriously, do you need to affirm yourself to others that way?

But I don't deny that I do reverse psychology to scare the shit out of the other party. Like when the other person said that he/she completed an assignment, I will I completed it 2 hours ago. Such manipulative actions are so well-drilled into our pillars of characters.

But still,

I want days free of manipulation and tactic-friendship. I just want an innocent fondness towards each other and pure adoration for each other's strengths.

Those days obviously will never appear.

I hope when I die, I no longer need to be manipulative in my after life.

I really hope so.