surprise

Now I am Honorary Generary Secretary for Paparazzi 2010.

That was a surprise cause I didnt apply for that.

LOL.

What The Flea

Flea market coming up.

I searched around the net, and many good buys found.

Perhaps I'll go there to take a look.

Anyone up for it?

Though it's near the exams, we need to relax and shop you know?

203 woes

It's the attack of LJN.

You will most likely not find me in 203 lecture tomorrow.

Media Law - interesting

LJN lecturing on Media Law - as boring as Ris Low is not bipolar.

Sgfles here I come.

oh no

I am scared I will screw up my presentation.

But then again, it's only 5 minutes of misery.

Argh I shall calm myself down now.

In a mood to chatter away about random life bits.

This is just a rather random chatter regardng whatever comes to mind right now, so if you are not into this kind of therapeutical blabber, I suggest you just go hunt somewhere else.

One thing that has been occupying my mind quite a lot is what I'm going to do in the future after graduation. My initial plan was to intern at CLEO and then after I say au revoir to university hell, I will continue working there. However, an ominous thought always lingers; what if I don't get the internship? What will I do then? I thought of quite a few back-up plans: perhaps try to get internship at CHIC magazine (the new biweekly fashion bible), or maybe get internship as a student pursuing Public Relations at some beauty company like MAC, Maybelline, Sephora, etc.

But then again, another thought will dawn upon me: what if I'm not good enough for whatever is expected of me as an intern? It's normal and obvious for most interns to not have experience, but what if I cannot live up to whatever high standards that are set for me to achieve? I'm growing to be such a worry-wart.

Another thing will be the issues with self-esteem, or perhaps to say it specifically self-pride and self-love. Being beaten down by others is no big deal, everyone deals with that. But being beaten down by yourself is a sign that someone is crushing under the pressure. I constantly say to myself that if I give my best in whatever I do, everything will go well. The people around me are not helping the situation, with some thinking I am some blonde(hint: the hair) shit that comes from the land of bimboticism. Being reserved about certain things does not qualify me as someone dense. I have my own thoughts and I have my own opinions; I just don't say them that much, I prefer to write them down. I'm rather scornful about this matter because I know I shouldn't be bothered by all these retarded comments made by some air-heads, but I am. I am letting all these negative remarks get into me. And to finish it off, I am convinced that whatever they say may have some truth in them. Hence the state of me taking everything with a pinch of salt. I don't have a clear goal anymore. I have lost my competitive nature.

Let's skip studies; they are nor exactly the things I want to ponder about right now. urgh.

The last thing will be something more light-hearted. I love seeing couples on the beaches. I genuinely do. Some people capture the image using their cameras. Some sketch it down on paper. I have it on my mind. Couples that help each other when one falls off the bike, couples who roller-blade together, couples who sit by the beach watching the sun say goodbye to this pathetic world and couples who try their hardest to make the day the best for themselves and their offspring. A lot of emotions went through my head. My family, my life and my friends. Love is so simple, yet so difficult to attain. I'm past the mouldy age of 20, and I still have yet to configure the real meaning of love. To me, love has no definition whatsoever, just a blank canvas waiting for the characters to paint their stories on. I have fortunately gotten love from family, from friends and from past loves, and I do appreciate my life now. Though it may not be the best that I can have, I'm better off than a lot of other people. Appreciation of love takes a full 20 years for me to understand and fully grasp. Love indeed is a complex puzzle that needs to be solved step by step, patiently.

Discussing about love makes me feel very nostalgic.

Remembering how my grandma used to give me the meatballs when we ate noodles together because she knew I loved those meatballs.

Remembering how my best friends were there for me when I had a mental breakdown.

Remembering how my past loves tolerated with my weird idiosyncracies.

Remembering how I loved myself.

I really should go back to the times when I knew what I did was for myself and not for others. Healing fully can take some time, but the process itself can be educational in many ways than one.

Sometimes I really wonder why I can write these random words with such ease, and when it comes to assignments I just get blank registered in the brain. I guess I just love being unrestricted and boundary-less.

A free spirit, I really am.

angsty again

For those who thinks that I'm fucking stupid, fuck you.

I will show you why I landed a space in WKWSCI.

Seriously, by not discussing in whatever Ms World speeches or the topic of the week does not mean that I don't have a mind of my own. I just try to keep my opinions to myself.

Geez.

People are so deluded sometimes.

What, doesn't talk or participate in class means I'm a certified bimbo who is a waste of space in uni?

Fuck you.

a look at my fave looks for spring 2010.

OSCAR DE LA RENTA

BALMAIN

(seriously in love with this collection. Blazers and sequins and blings!)

BALENCIAGA

JOHN GALLIANO

BETSEY JOHNSON

(i'm falling in love with the model's hair. should i?)

ANNA SUI

very sweet very demure...

and most importantly, elements of butterflies everywhere!

Back home and nua-ing.

What study?

tomorrow lar. =)

am i attracting germs or something.

It started with a woozy feeling.

Then nausea overtook the ride.

And now I have fever.

My body is a breeding ground for virus.

Panadol does not work at all.

And it's raining.

Raining usually brings euphoria to everyone in Boonlayville.

But today, the rain brings me cold and even more pain.

I am in fucking pain.

Help.

another of those list thingy.

Things to do tomorrow: (updated on 20th october 12.55am)

1. Run around Bukit Batok at 830am with Mao and Lohla (done)
2. 205 ppt slides version 2 (done)
3. 205 speech outline (hardcopy: to be handed in) (done)
4. Read Eve's UCT book (2 chapters)
5. Craft own UCT notes for lecture 2, and if possible lecture 3 as well
6. Send chay and oishan the history ppt slides (done)
7. Do french homework (done)
8. Memorise 205 speech
9. Decide on a topic for history individual project

Things to bring to hall tomorrow:

1. Black and white outfit for Tuesday
2. White heels for outfit
3. Track shoes (important for the sake of healthy lifestyle)

Another note:

I am bloody confused of what to do now. I need my FOC meetings to start so that my attention is diverted fully to FOC and CI CLUB!

Night my dear nocturnal friends.

Lovely song from a lovely drama! =)

The September Issue

If you love fashion, if you devour fashion magazines like a style-glutton and if you do not just browse through the ads in these magazines but actually stare hard at them, you need a dosage of The September Issue. No surprises that VOGUE and Anna Wintour were the focus of the whole movie given than VOGUE is the leading fashion magazine and Anna Wintour is the brain behind it and the fashion genius who is famously known for bringing fur back to trend.

Why the September Issue so specifically? For cavemen out there, the September issues of fashion magazines usually mean the start of Fall fashion. Lots of jackets and boots, and every other inventions to keep you warm and chic. For VOGUE's September Issue, it's going to be the biggest and heaviest issue ever. God knows how those fashionistas drag the magazine back.

The movie basically focused on behind-the-scenes of the production of that bumper issue.

Fun facts! =)

1. Designers are actually fearful of Anna Wintour, even top-designers. Stefano Pilato, the head designer for Yves Saint Laurent was nervous when he presented his fall collection to Anna. Even Prada has to change its designs because Anna thought the material used for the jackets were too heavy and inaccessible. Don't you love this woman?
2. In the fashion world, September is the January. That's where most women slip back to the tallest of all heels and find comfort in the most extravagant jackets and coats. God I love fashion.
3. No matter what kind of fashion movie, all of the editors are obsessed with Starbucks. EVERY SINGLE ONE will feature Starbucks. Singapore's Starbucks is bullshit, so I guess the original ones are much better. Ho-hum
4. Before an issue is off to be processed in the printing room, all the content is projected on a notebook (a HUGE notebook) page-by-page, line-by-line. It's crazy. 600++ pages of goodness drafted again and again. That's worse than 204.
5. This movie also highlights the growth of ThaKoon, the guest designer for GAP. Anna is in love with his designs. HAHA.
6. Anna Wintour's daughter wants to do Law. Guess all the VOGUE issues in her humongous house is making her sick.
7. Can you believe this? She is actually the person who ignited the trend to put celebrities on the cover of magazines. ooh la la.

Obviously this is not a proper review. Who cares. Fashion's not guided by rules and restrictions, why should a blog post about fashion be then?

eekky feeling. need to wash clothes now!

I am feeling the heat

It is quite a wise decision to quit choir.

Because as of now:

1. I am Welfare Head of FOC'10

2. I am in Welfare Sub-Comm for CI CLUB

3. I am in P&P Sub-Comm for CI CLUB

And I still have yet to know the results of whether I made it as Costume and Make-up Manager of Paparazzi. Talk about making my life wholesome. This is freaking awesome. Just the studies and the school! I love it! No sarcasm dripping okay, I am sincere about my elation.

Tomorrow's the job interview. If I get it, perhaps I will work once or twice a week and four times when it's the holidays. =)

December will be rather busy though, with Malaysia shopping trips with OG and carwashing sessions to raise funds with fellow FOC people! =)

And, I think I found a new target! =)woohoo!

Random post about exciting stuff.

Rather impressed by how I managed to digress for every single UCT lecture. Today it was all the fashion blogs that caught my attention.

Lady Gaga is getting freaky. Last time she was unique and fresh. Now she is like a clown. Some say she's an extremist entertainer. I say she needs someone to bring her back to reality. Being different is one thing, being cuckoo is another.

Even Katy Perry wore a nicer Hello Kitty outfit than her. =.=

Oh Lord.
Shoes always catch my attention. Especially shoes that look extremely painful. This is an uber chio pair of oxfords. That detail on the heels is to die for!

And I saw this at both Topshop and Aldo. However they were priced rather dearly. No way am i going to spend that much on a pair of heels, no matter how chio. I'm so going to roam Salvation's Army and Bugis. Wish me luck on that.

I love the lime green one!!! =)

And the ultimate killer pair from Alexander McQueen's latest collection. I'm amazed by the heels but just by looking at the models walk, I feel their pain. Some of them walked so awkwardly that you watch, cringing in fear of them slipping and twisting their bamboo ankles.

More on such stuff when I have the time to update HAHA.

=)

I got it.
I'm Welfare Head for WKWSCIFOC'10 !
WOOHOO!! =)

hectic week indeed

I have quit choir for the reason of focusing more on the academics. I am in the midst of intelligent cuckoos who can score without even studying. Hence the need to mug, even so with the examinations looming. Now that I have no CCA and no hall life, I hope I will get an ad-hoc committee position to make my life more balanced. All work and no play will make me jump down building.

Going Home (Singapore Polytechnic)

Watch, if you are not the very least touched, you should shake hands with Lucifer.

new taiwan drama!

I have something to look forward to every week. 

I thought it was just another cheesy taiwan drama, especially because Van Ness (yes that's how we are supposed to spell it, according to him) is starring in it. 

I just finished watching the debut and all I can say is, I'm hooked.

Totaling up to just 13 episodes, this is a breath of fresh air from all those draggy shit that I have been watching. Fast-paced and exciting, mild and touching, creepy and weird (hint: stepdad in the show is a pervert!) all at the same time. A definite must-watch for Taiwan drama skeptics. 

Plus points: Ady An is really pretty, Van Ness has grown manly, Tiffany hsu (Ethan Ruan's girlfriend) is hot and the guy acting as Hua Tuo Ye is damn nice. =) 

WHY ONLY 13 EPISODES!!!!!!! Dammit. Tomorrow's the 2nd episode. CAN'T WAIT!! =)

PS: I twitted about how I missed having someone sending me home everyday. I cannot play till damn late anymore le!!! =( 

munching away.

I didn't have dinner today so there's World War 3 inside those organs. Fortunately enough I have chips freshly-bought from Nanyang Mart. 

Which brings me to my point,

NANYANG MART IS FREAKING AWESOME!

Rows and rows and rows of instant noodles. Pringles in every possible flavour, or even some that I have never seen before. London Choco Roll in so many flavours. Chips that are so huge but so cheap. NTU adapters. NTU mugs. NTU shirts. NTU EVERYTHING! I love Nanyang Mart. Hall 2 peeps are so damn lucky. They even have a salon! I'm going to pierce Rachel with my jealous glare the next time I see her. 

Today was definitely not a good day for me.

1. I went to school in a super market-going attire. Just by that you know that I wasn't in a good mood already.
2. PMS! Crap.
3. Then the real thing came and I was curling on my bed to curb the pain.
4. Choir did not help at all.
5. I am so bloody fat.

When I'm having a bad day, I will always say I AM BLOODY FAT. 

Brain's not working. Rolls of fat increasing alarmingly. Pimples growing on a super fertilised skin. I am so screwed. My market price will plummet down for sure. I have a sad life lor. 

I have Choir Camp from 9 - 11 december and I'm the group facilitator. And very coincidentally, Gerald (Music IC, and in charge of facilitators) is from AJC and he got taught by MOHAN as well! HAHAHAHAHA. So Choir should be more fun then, but Saturday I have to be in school for choir for 9 freaking hours. Boo to that.

I shall go bathe. This is a super artificial and of-no-value blog post. I just feel like ranting. 

MORE VIDEOS!!!

An Indonesia-Singapore collaboration.
I WANT TO WATCH!!!
It's like House of Wax and Saw all wrapped into one. yummy.



Chay introduced me to BEG. Extremely addictive song. There's a parody somewhere. HAHA.
This is the stage version of the actual MV, which was criticised for being rather racy (bondage and lesbianisn and all that jazz)
Love the dance!



Papa Loh's facebook video. HUAHUAHUA. I love this. Michael Bay should consider a remake with Optimus Prime and Bumblebee and whoever else is in to dance along. Megan Fox not allowed to do so. She will sexi-fied the whole thing.



ah time for bed. =)

MENSES WOES POST #2

WILSONG WHY YOU "OH MY GOD! WHEN YOU SEE WHAT MY FRIEND WROTE!!!" =)

Yes, I deleted the previous post because it was too much for young pure minds. HAHA. 

People are playing facebook games now.

All hail the pioneer of facebook game addict -  all hail me! =)

This is such a rubbish post. 

I'm bored.

I'm wasting space.

Ok.

What happened to David Letterman? I'm still a wee bit confused. How is he hugely in debt and unable to pay the child support to his wife when his show is so huge in the US?? 

And I realise a lot of old men there like to have sexual affairs with very young sluts. I think it's the porn industry. To minimise this result, they should introduce senior citizen porn or something. Bad idea but may be effective. Then these old men will see new ways of spicing up their married lives! WAHAHAHA!

ok wilsong is peeping. that idiot. 

bye!

-

I must stop Ebay-ing.

I must stop Ebay-ing.

I must stop Ebay-ing.

ARGH!

PAPARAZZI 2009 ROCKS!! =)

It was rather salient. Kay Wee despite this being his "virgin attempt" at acting was nothing but outstanding! A bit creepy. This is the first time I heard him say so many words.  =)

THE CONCRETE SKIES is rather complex. But it's goodie goodie good. Eldon was very entertaining when he tried to swallow his urge to laugh WITH the audience. But it all worked out because all of them were supposed to be mental patients (or mental doctor with an insane past), so laughing in the midst of garang actions should be normal! 

The worst thing about this is ..... my blistered feet. =(

Thank you papa loh for driving us girls home. If not for you, I would have just walked barefoot home. 

Photos are up on facebook. WOOHOO! I am fast, I know. =)

All my comm studies homework are done! YAY! rest for tonight. Tomorrow study UCT! Test must pawn ATs! 

sorry for the absence.

I was sleeping and studying the whole day, well mostly sleeping, so I had to sacrifice the productive blog posts and entertain my readers with videos and more videos. 

This recess week has been a complete torture so far, with few breaths of ecstasy when I'm out having fun. Even then, somewhere at the back of head, there will be a continuous echo telling me to screw myself and get home for the assignments.

It was so bad until I had a mental breakdown. For the first time in my life I was questioning the path that I have chosen for myself. For the first time in my life I contemplated the idea of death. It was that bad. I cried myself to slumber, and I woke up with a horrible pair of panda eyes. I vow never to cry to sleep again. 

I sobered up this morning and I started doing my assignments at my own pace and without stressing myself too much. That worked. I am on my third assignment now. Another reason for elation will be that tomorrow there will be no choir practice! One more day for assignments. Should I go back to hall? 

Let's go back to more light-hearted subjects. =)

I really want this mascara. YAY! 

I didn't know being a Watsons' member means getting free GLOW magazines. I have yet to start reading, but the $5 off voucher given already made me happy. I need to go Watsons soon! 

I said in one of my previous post that I would be reviewing some masks. I have applied masks religiously for the past 4 nights to try out new stuff and to regenerate my sadly-ignored skin.

These reviews are in order of merit, with my favourite coming up first!

ETUDE HOUSE O2 White Mask Sheet

Given to me by Stufu for my birthday.

THIS IS AMAZING STUFF! I THINK IT'S MY HOLY GRAIL MASK NOW!

Reasons why I like it so much:

1. When you take out the mask from the packet, it is not dripping with the essence. I hate it when I open one, and then liquid will drip all over. MESSY!
   
2. The fragrance is very subtle. Not those over-powering ones that make you dizzy.
3. It sticks very easily to the skin. I was standing around for a whole 10 minutes, and it didn't slide off my face. LOVE!
4. You know how sometimes masks are designed more for people with broader faces and hence when you try to layer excess sheet, bubbles will form, and then you have to painstakingly press them down every now and then? This sticks like mud musk. I am so impressed. It took me less than 30 seconds to put it on. =)
5. I didn't research on the promises that this mask has. I took it down after 40 minutes and my skin tone was even. Before applying, I had patches of red here and there because I didn't take good care of my skin during term time. After applying, my skin was all the same colour. Even blemishes look less prominent. WOW.

Reason why I am NAY-ing it:

1. It's not sold in ETUDE HOUSE! It's more of a freebie if you purchase stuff. PEOPLE, PLEASE TELL ME WHERE TO GET THIS!!!

Formula 10.0.6 Pores Be Pure Skin-clarifying Mud Mask

S$2.95 from Watsons, bought it because buying it entitles 20 additional points. LOL.

PROS:

1. The smell is to die for. Subtle yet very therapeutic.
2. The mud is PINK! lol. what a reason right? =/
3. It works really well especially if you have enlarged pores. However, one application a week is not enough. 3 times a week will be good enough to see optimal results. 

CONS:

1. It tingles so bad. I accidentally applied some to my lips and I was lazy to take it off. After 5 minutes my whole face was burning and my lips feel as if I applied a lip-plumper. On the bright side, you know it's working right? 

Wo De Mei Li Re Ji Strawberry Yoghurt Mask

Given to me by Lily!! 

The only thing I liked was its smell. Much nicer than the chemical Laneige Strawberry Yoghurt Peeling Mask. This smells as if it can be eaten. But only the smell was nice. The rest was BLAH! Dripping (NO), slides off skin (NO NO), when I lie down, liquid flowed to my neck (NO NO NO NO!!!).

Wo De Mei Li Re Ji Pearl Powder Mask

Given to me by Lily also!

Nothing good. Horrible smell as well. URGH. Will never use this ever again. Thank goodness I had only one. 

My BB cream package came in the mail today! =)

These 4 tubes for 10 bucks. CHEAP! The seller was so nice, she included a freebie as well! 

Reviews for them will come, sooner or later. HAHAHAHAHA.

Clothing haul:

I am so lazy to take photos, so here goes:

1. A topshop tanktop for 2 bucks on Ebay (brand new with tag)
2. Cotton On bandage leather skirt for 12.50
3. Cotton On printed shirt for 5 bucks
4. Forever 21 Faded T-Shirt Dress for 10 bucks on SGFLEA.
5. 2 blazers for 6 bucks from Ebay
6. and maybe more to come. LOL. I don't really remember. =/

Back to studying. =)